god , how many times u wan me to suffer becoz of joyce..? i suddenly have this low blood pressure and i am demoralised enough,why fuking do this.
i always knew this day would come,and it came 2day,i knew this felicia problem will eventually affect me n joyce de relationship,i quarrel wif her becoz of that,and she keeps side fel and juz wan us to 4giv her,but wtf,why she come in,why must she come in and knowing that i love her so much would get hurt,and she wan come into the problem?? firstly knowing she is goin to leave rp is damn fuking sad le,do u see my depress face?? no!! do u noe how i feel ? no!!! i nv show u,and i dun wan u to know,coz i dun wan u more problem,i always think of u in many ways beocz of wad? coz i love u,but i heard frm some hearsay that u love someone else,wtf?? if tt is the case jolly well tell me,and not let me wait,w/o knowing whether i am waiting for smth impossible or not...!! u noe when u call me,kenneth wan listen and i dun feel like toking abt felicia matter,and fuk,neo u go scold her,i dun blame u,u mean well 4 me,but deep inside me,i fuking sad u noe,every word u say to joyce hurts me too,nabei den joyce blame me,and when i talk to her,she shout at me like wad,its my fault? huh!!! i noe u angry i also ma,u tink wad? i ultimate tanking machine??? i wun angry one ah...tts why i tok back loud at u,but u tink i song ah,knn i first time cry in front of ppl since i was younger,and wad u keep say wad end , end end that fuking frenship,ccb if can i sure end,not becoz of u, i ended it long ago,and i can also end it as i feel u drifting away,but wad?? in the end afta i cooldown abit,my hart soften,i go apologise,i go help her settle,becoz i wan her happy,but u noe ma??? i hav alot to say to u joyce...i wanna tell u not to leave rp,i wan ask u how u feel of me,i wan ask many many stuffs but i dun wan,coz i noe it may bring more troubles to u,and btw u said u tried to love me,but eventually not,why..? why cant u juz love me huh?? i can do so many things for u,i even constantly remind myself to do anything for u ,if i know tt u got the needs,and i dun wan any return but for wad..? can u pls tell me or prove to me wad i do is worth it...can anot?? or else i have to be harsh here *just fuking tell me u dun like me,and stop me from dreaming on...!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!* ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh fuk .....fuking problem, btw pls cherish me and show it unless u r gonna lose me as a fren or wad,becoz u may think i am a clown,but i am not,i entertain to let ppl happy and i also need happiness too,and if u cannt make me happy,jolly well fuk off,i dun need fukers in my life.... ahhhhhhhhhhh save me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (i love joyce,i still love joyce,although i always tell u all i would giv her up,but i cannot,becoz i had already put her in front of myself) joyce love me once and for all,can??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????
